4 months from now.....

SO in 4 months on July 18th, I will be on a plane to Costa Rica for my first ever mission trip!

I am so excited but nervous too!  :)   We will be going to Atenas, which is about 45 minutes from San Jose, and we will be serving at Hogar De Vida, an orphanage there...I truly believe God is having me go there for so many reasons....After our two losses, and us taking a break, I think this trip is what I need.  To reflect, refresh, and be humbled...I really want to be humbled on this trip and serve in ways I have never served before.
Wayne will stay behind, and it makes me nervous to go without him, but I know I can do it without him.  There will be about 12-14 of us going, and I know the coordinator so that will be nice!


On another note, my genetic results on me were normal...So we and the doctors believe that these two losses were 'flukes'...it is still very hard, and there are many triggers that make me sad.

Last week at the Maroon 5 concert, I was going to announce publicly by wearing a t shirt that said "my first concert" and an arrow at my belly..:/   Around Mothers Day is when we would have been due with the first one...Around our anniversary in Sept. is when I would have been due with the 2nd...I know I will get through all these "dates", it is just a step by step process...

I asked my Dr. if she was in our shoes what would she do...She said she would keep trying...

So, not all hope is lost...God has not closed the door yet...We heal, take a break, and probably after my trip, will try again...and pray for a big miracle!