Devastation...again...

I wish oh how I wish I was writing good news on my blog...
Long story short, we are facing once again a pregnancy loss...It was confirmed today, no more growth and no heartbeat...
Backing up, Sun. am Wayne took me to the ER in Wylie as I had a bleed that I freaked out about. 
They confirmed at the ER that my cervix was closed, but the sono diagnosis was not good. We were discharged, my bleed had stopped, and I was told to rest and to get in with my Dr.

We are numb, devastated, and really in disbelief. HOW could there be a faint heartbeat, that lovely flicker we saw on Thursday, and now nothing????  

God had other plans...once again, and once again, I question things, and why this is happening...

I am taking a break, not only from "trying" to get preg. again, but a break from work...I need to regroup, refocus, and move forward...I feel awful resigning from a place where the kids are truly "mine" for a day...
But I have to do what is best for me...I will find something else...but I need a month break to deal with things...

Keep us in your prayers....