I got through it...

I got through my D and C yesterday...It was not as bad as I expected (physically). One of the most uncomfortable things was I had to insert a pill, so it would dilate me and open and soften up my cervix. By the time we got there, I was cramping pretty bad, and it was like I was in my period.   The other difficult part was them trying to get my IV started which is what I dreaded the most.  After 4 sticks, the Anesthesiologist finally got it.  He was really wonderful, and was so nice. I was sad before the procedure, and just felt like I had a deep hole in my heart.  I was saying good bye to this little miracle that I had grown to love and cherish, and pray over for the past month when we found out I was pregnant.  My Mom and Wayne were there with me, and it was really hard for my Mom to watch them stick me so many times. She had to leave the room a few times..:(

After it was over, my cramping was pretty bad.  I was given Tordal, and within 30 minutes it was minimized.

Because of the IV difficulties, I did not get to the OR till 3pm, and we didn't leave Frisco until 5.  Needless to say we were all wiped out.....

My discharge papers said I couldn't take a shower or go to work for 24 hours. So Wayne made the call to my boss, and told him the situation and that I would need to stay home today.  He was very understanding but it def. did not make me feel any better by missing today. But it is what it is.

I will have my post op appt. in a couple of weeks, and the Dr. will go over the genetic testing results.  I am praying that it was just a "fluke" blighted ovum, and that genetically Wayne and I are ok with trying to conceive again.

When will we try again?  When I feel healed enough too...I suspect in Jan.we will start trying again.

I need my body and my mind to be healed and I am ok with that. I don't want to rush in to anything.

I got through it, and I will continue to heal...It will be a process, but I know one day I will see our miracle in Heaven.  And for that I am so so blessed...