Curiosity..

Curiosity..It can get the best of us sometimes...With our TTC journey, it can DEF. get the best of you....

I started my period Dec. 22nd, and 1-6 I got my first pos. OPK test! It was a digital, so hoping it was pretty accurate! Anyways, this we as of today or yest. it has been two weeks since I "ovulated"..."" is because I really don't know....You can get a pos. ovulation test, and not "ovulate"...Well, my BF was in town, and my Mom's bday is next Sat..Good time to test for preg....NOT.....It was NEG...But I had a feeling it would be. I don't know my feelings on things right now...Being around Baby Kellan (my bff's youngest) it is hard...Not because I am jealous, but because I want a Baby! So I either tested too early, I didn't ovulate, and/or I will have another cycle where I got 40-6o days, no AF, and get to figure out what the H to do. I have a feeling if I don't start by then, the Dr. will want me to set up the HSG test, and have Wayne do the SA. If both those are clear, I think he will put me on Clomid, after I start a cycle.

So curiosity got the best of me this AM...I don't regret it...I move on, and say a prayer..And Thank God for giving me patience, and gratitude during a time when I need it the most...